Below are the 14 most recent journal entries recorded in b_joel_and_chrissy_4_ever's LiveJournal:

Wednesday, December 1st, 2004
11:41 am	I have copied and pasted this from a Web Site!!! I have found out that the French words, the words that are in this song, are the same as the English words!! It is hard to keep going with your life sometimes, Journalina. It is hard to try to love new people, when old people mean that you do not even have to try! The Lyrics Are Below Billy Joel C'Etait Toi (You Were the One) (You Were The One) Here I am again In this smoky place With my brandy eyes I'm talking to myself You were the one You were the one Here I go again Looking for your face And I realize That I should look for someone else But you were the one You were the one I'm looking for comfort That I can take From someone else But after all I know there is no one That can save me from myself You were the only one Me revoici Dans ce bar enfume Avec mes yeux iures Je me parle a moi meme C'etait toi C'etait toi Me revoici Cherchant ton visage Et je realise Que je devrais en chercher une autre C'etait toi You were the one Je recherche l'affection Qu'une autre pourrait me donner Mais apres tout Je sais qu'il n'y a personne Personne qui puisse me sauver Tu etais la seule I'm looking for comfort That I can take From someone else But after al I know there is no one That can save me, save me from myself You were the only one (Comment on this)
Saturday, July 24th, 2004
5:44 pm	Sad and Happy If Billy is in the hospital than I am not going to get the tattoo that I wanted to get because that would not be a Christian thing to do at a time like this when I should be feeling sorry for him but if the tattoo hurt alot then I think it could be a nice way to show him that I feel the pain that he is feeling. But when he gets out of the hospital we can talk about car accidents and hospitals. And maybe if he has a cast he will let me draw a heart and a C on it. That way if anyone asks him who did that he can say that Christ did it and no one will no that we have started making love again. And he shall be like a tree planted by the streams of water, That bringeth forth its fruit in its season, Whose leaf also doth not wither; And whatsoever he doeth shall prosper. Psalms 1:3 Especially if it is me! --Chrissy Toth 5:54 Current Mood: horny Current Music: Only the Good Die Young but not Billy!! (Comment on this)
Friday, June 11th, 2004
11:13 am	Hello Journal! Hello! Hello Journalina!! I am very happy today! Everything is healed and I think that, with the grace of God, I will be cast in the next play, now that I dont have to wear a cast! Isn't that funny the way those are the same word? Do you know what. I really want to write alot today but today it is so warm that I think the best thing to do is to call Megan and see what she is doing. If she is not doing anything. If not, maybe she wants to go to the strip with me. She has to drive! (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 23rd, 2004
4:29 am	the play Dear Journalina: This is some writing that I wrote on paper and typed when I got home: I have been too busy to write, Journal! I am sorry! The play is alot of time and alot of work and alot of learning. It is really cool, though. I kind of feel like me and my character would be best friends if we met at the strip. That is the mall. I called the mall the strip when I was talking to Jeff. Jeff is in the show, too! Jeff said that I should not call it the strip I should call it the mall. Then next he said that if it ever gets buldozzed I should call it the strip. That is funny!! I love you Journal. I promise to write soon, and I promise to write more to you. I have alot of stories to tell you, Journal!! I thought of something today, J. I will maybe call you J. sometimes. What do you think? What do you think of your new cute nickname? You sound like a boy if I call you J. I am going to call you Journal for the rest of my life. I am sorry, Journal but you are not a boy! I hope you did not think that is what you were! So now I know that you do not like your new nickname that is not cute. Now I want to know if you have ever thought of this, Journalina. I like that one alot. You do too I guess. I will call you Journal and Journalina when I want to show you that I am really liking writing. I was driving. It was on Amber Lane. Isn't that a pretty name for a street Journalina? I have lived on Winding Way my whole life except for five months when I was a baby. Winding Way is right next to Amber Lane. Really, they are connected! Winding Way makes a curve that goes until it becomes Amber Lane. I was driving and I was thinking, Journalina. I wanted to keep thinking, because every day it makes me feel like more and more I want to start anew. I was thinking about Holly Wood, Journalina. I always used to think about Holly Wood. Ever since I was a little kid. I even sometimes played dress up. I know I am not a kid now! All at the same, I like to think about what a party was like in Holly Wood. I thought it was warm and I think everyone is friends and everyone knows everyone's boyfriend and no one was ever jealous because everyone has a party to go to everyday and everyone has a different bathing suit that they can put in their purses if they want to because I know there is a lot of swimming to do in Holly Wood, Journalina! I used to think about it all the time. It is what is a Utopia. I think about Billy having a manshion with a pool. I was thinking about it extra hard when I was driving. I had not thought about it in a few days, though. That is why I was thinking about it so hard maybe. It had been a while. Journalina. You have a pretty name. I think that Chrissy is a pretty name to. Really, I think that I am a pretty girl, Journalina. I really do. I guess I like to day dream alot. It always makes me feel good. I was not going to tell you about what happenned, Journalina. I am scared to tell it because maybe it is not really real yet. Maybe it is a real dream, maybe it is a night dream I guess. Maybe I am going to wake up and be late for work in five minutes. What do you think, Journalina? I dont know either. I dont know the truth. I would be really happy if in five minutes I woke up and my alarm clock was broken and I got out of bed and I didnt have a broken leg and I didnt have a chip on my front tooth and I didnt have little baby size peaces of glass in my forehead from where the windshield cut me. I am praying to God that this is a nightmear, Journie. I praying that it is just a joke that I made to play with my imagination so I will do good in the Shakespeare play. I am praying that I will be at rehersel tomorrow. I am praying that I wasn't really thinking about Holly Wood so hard that I did not hold the steering wheel the way I am supposed to. I am praying that I didn't really hit another car. I am of course God and Journalina praying that the woman in the other car is ok. How come I know her face if I was not paying attention? How come I know just what she looked like the instant before I just crashed just about straight into her? How come she didnt drive off the road and into the ditch. Do you think Journalina, and God that she was having a little dream in her car too? I am in so much pain from the accident. Its not a dream at all, is it? If it is a dream you cannot wake up in the the dream, can you? If it is a dream than that means that I am dreaming about waking up because when I woke up and I didnt know why I felt funny for ten whole minutes I didnt know why I felt so funny and it seemed like ten hours that I was lying on my back but it was only ten minutes because I saw a clock on the wall and it was very white and the wall was too and it hurt my eyes. And I watched it. I looked at the clock and I watched it and I watched the second hand and tried to see the minute hand moving and tried to see the hour hand moving too. I was terified to look at anything else because I new I was in a hospital even though it is the first time I have ever ben in one. I guess this is a long bad dream. That must be the answer. I am about to wake up. I have not really been in the hospital for two days. I did not really see all of those bruizes and cuts. I am just a slow day dreamer and a slow awake person and so that is why the nightmear is taking so long to tell me that it is just testing me to see how long I can stay asleep. I am just tired. Every thing is really just like it was when I went to sleep last time. That is all. Do you know what happened? I was driving real fast on Amber Lane to get to Winding Way. Right when we hit each other I was thinking about a lot of things. I was thinking that the shape of Amber Lane and Winding Way are a good shape for a swimming pool. I could have a pool like that when I went to Holly Wood. I was thinking I could invite one of the girls from work and one or two of the guys from the play to come with me and we could go to the parties together. And I thought of Billy too and I thought we could see him and maybe we could tell him about the play, or about the stupid thing that my boss did last winter when her car got stuck in the snow and she put her jacket under one of the tires to help it out but she didnt have another jacket and she wore it to work the next day and took it off right away but we all saw it and made fun of her when she was far enough away to here us. And I was kind a really happy, even though usually I think about being really in love with Billy and this time we were just kind of friends that liked each other alot. And then I saw the prettiest face I have ever seen, but it was real it wasn't the daydream and I heard the loudest noise it sounded just like the whole world was breaking, not just the cars. I am not very smart I guess. I took my seatbelt off right when I got to Amber Lane and I dont really know why I took it off but it seemed like the right thing to do for a big day dream. I unbuckled it about one minute before the crash. That is probably a part of what was wrong with my driving. I was scootting out of it. I was thinking about how I could have a swimming pool shaped like Amber Lane and Winding Way. I allready wrote this down but I want to write it again. It came into my mind one more time so I should write it down since your my friend and you want to know. I really think I am pretty, Journalina. Not today really because of the accident. Today I am not really pretty. I am really tired. I am going to sleep for a little bit. That is too bad because that really does mean its true. God give me strength, please. Here is something that I wrote the next day, before I got to go back home: Jeff left me a card. The nurse showed it to me. I had not noticed it was lying down on the shelf by my bed here. It has all of these really nice Bible quotes in it. I don't really understand it because Jeff is a bit of a rebell, I guess. He always wears boots that click when he walks in rehersel, and he has lots of earrings. I didnt think he was even a Christian, if you really want the whole truth. I want to go back to sleep for a little bit. I have a headache and I am thirsty but I am too tired to do anything to make that better right now. I wrote those two a few days ago. I do not know the exact day. Both were in the afternoon I know. I cannot do Much Ado About Nothing. I will not be better in time. Jeff called me. I wonder who he asked to get my number. He said he will talk to them to see if they can tell me about the next play. I didnt know why he was saying that. I think he knew that I was confused. He said that he wanted to be in the next play with me so lets start working on reading it together now as soon as I feel like it. I said that he had to work on Much Ado. He has a lot of lines. He said he knew them already because he has a good memory. I wish I did. Maybe not, though. Maybe a good memory is hard to have. It seems like it. He works two jobs and his father has MS and his mother moved away a long time ago. His grandmother lives with him and his father. He said she is a good cook, so that makes everything ok and then he laughed quietly in the phone. I had to go because my neck really hurt and it was hard to talk on the phone for too long. He said I should come over for dinner sometime. He said are you gonna be on crutches or anything and I said yes I have them but I have not used them yet, I am not supposed to get out of bed to much for at least one more day. He said he would put too extra chairs at the table for me, so I would have a place to sit and a place to put my leg up if I wanted. I thought that was really sweet. I am too tired to write anymore right now. Sincerly, Chrissy (Comment on this)
Monday, March 8th, 2004
11:04 pm	I Changed My Mind He is not half the man that Billy is. (Comment on this)
10:57 pm	I am so excited! I am going to be on stage! I am in a show called "Much Ado About Nothing." One of the guys in the show is really cute and I think he likes me! His name is Andrew!!! We had a really long talk tonight and I told him about Billy but I wish I had not told him this because maybe he thinks that I am too hurt to like him, but he is wrong! Current Mood: excited Current Music: Shakespeare in Love soundtrack (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 4th, 2004
7:55 pm	I Love Billy Alot. I am going to make a list of reasons why I love Billy so much. I am going to start the list here. Maybe if it is slow at work I will make more for the list and then copy them here. Billy is an amazing musician. Billy is so tender with me. I am going to write more later. I promise, Journal. Now I have to leave. I just saw that the wall clock has stopped. It does not say the same time the computer says is the time. I am so glad that Billy and I are back together because if we were not I would be really scared that I am going to get fired because my shift started allready. (1 Comment |Comment on this)
Wednesday, March 3rd, 2004
4:27 pm	I am writing too entries today, because something very good has happened. Billy wrote to me!!!! He wrote and now we're back together! I am sorry that I lost faith in you, Jesus, but now I will strive to walk in your footsteps once again, because you gave me this gift that I didn't even deserve. BJ+CT=Love. I have to go now. I have to find my car keys and then go to work. I can't wait to tell Megan. Don't worry, I won't tell her the whole story. That's only for you, Journal. "Call and I will answer" - Jer 33:3. I hope Billy reads that quote and it makes him want to call me! Current Mood: horny Current Music: Audio Adrenaline (Comment on this)
2:05 pm	Hello Journal. Do you even remember me, Journal? It has been a very long time since I have written in you. I have finished high school, Journal!! Well, maybe I will not write too much for now because not too much has happened today. I am going to work at five oclock. (9 Comments |Comment on this)
Monday, September 23rd, 2002
2:28 pm	Why, God? I just don't understand anything. I didn't even want to go to church this week. The Lord has smote me. I'm starting to think I will never hear from Billy again. We spent such an amazing night together, then, poof! It was like it had never happened at all, but it had, it had happened. I can't eat, I can't sleep, I can barely breathe. Oh, Billy. Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Billy Joel, why did you leave me? I'm going to go lie down. Nothing matters. Current Mood: gloomy Current Music: Godsmack (Comment on this)
Thursday, April 6th, 2000
5:11 am	Rapture Is Kissing the One You Love... ...on his privates!!! Once again my faith is strenghtened. "Ask and ye shall receive." I got down on my knees and told Billy what my one true wish in this world was, and, oh, God, Journal, I don't think I can even write about it! What if someone at school sees it? They will be so jealous that they won't talk to me anymore. You can envy me, though, journal, since we are friends to the end and real friends only envy to make each other feel popular and pretty. I have a cavity that needs to get filled, but I don't want the dentist to touch it, because I just know that there are little specks of Billy lingering in that happy abyss in my left bottom molar tooth. Current Mood: horny Current Music: The Stranger (even though he's not anymore!) (Comment on this)
Tuesday, April 4th, 2000
5:09 pm	Jesus Loves Me.... ....and soon, so will Billy Joel!!!! Yes, it happened!!! He called me!!!! After only four weeks, two days, nine hours and fifty-six minutes!!! He likes me!!!!!!! He is doing a show at the arena tonight. I am going! I told him I was going! He said, "I thought you would be." Ahhhh!!!! "I thought you would be!" We are going to get married twelve times!! Well, that would just be plain silly. We are going to get married!!! To each other!!!! I have never felt prettier in my whole life. Nonetheless, I do need to redo my pedicure, because, tonight, Billy Joel is going to take my socks off, I just know it!!!! I'm so in love. Oh Lord Almighty, thank You, thank You, thank You. I'll bet he likes pink toenail polish. Everything's finally happening for me, after all these years. It just goes to show that if you really put your mind to something and your faith in Christ our Savior, you can accomplish anything, even getting a telephone call from Billy Joel!!! Current Mood: horny Current Music: The Essential Billy Joel (Comment on this)
Thursday, March 23rd, 2000
8:04 pm	omigod I met him! I MET him. I met HIM!!!!!!!! and.......................... HE ASKED FOR MY PHONE NUMBER!!! and.................. _______________________I GAVE IT TO HIM!!!!______________ oh sweet lord. can it really be real? I am not going to leave the house for three whole years, because what if my sister answered the phone? She would think it was all a big joke. You are the only one that will ever know, dear journal. I love you, but not as much as I love Billy "I have Chrissy's phone number and I'm going to call her soon" Joel!!!! omigod_omigod_omigod_omigod!!!!!! Current Mood: horny Current Music: greatest hits (Comment on this)
Tuesday, March 23rd, 1999
9:57 am	soon Megan called me today and said that the "Buy Chrissy a Blow-Up Billy Joel Doll Fund" has collected four whole dollars! I am beyond excited. Current Mood: horny Current Music: the nylon curtain (Comment on this)